Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Forever Night

Loneliness bears down on a soul, whether there's a belief in souls or not. The feeling of immortality transcends even the simplest of human minds, but not everybody wants to live forever. And of those who do, most do not wish to be alone. How painful a thought... perhaps to die without a hand to hold, or without that one last kiss.

Knowing that one is a monster makes it difficult to foster a relationship, but even the most evil tend to find someone to fall back on when legs become too tired to stand. Love is not an emotion reserved for the good of heart. There is no black and white in feeling, only sensation. And each has a right to it.

It's been years since first meeting, a brief encounter beginning long absences separated by brief encounters. The revelation that absence often happens when in the same room was a dishearteningly valuable lesson to learn. How else do priorities objectively fall into place? Subjective existence is fraudulent, though potentially blissful. Still, it's better not to live in lies. There's no point to the sun if there's no enjoyment in sunlight.

The parallels are striking, maybe even deceptively so, but it's undeniable that they are there. Paths crossing too randomly to be random, both in choice of careers and of travels. Complicated minds succumbing to simple inclinations to believe in fateful pattern. Nature's patterns used to justify those beliefs... day and night, asleep and awake, death and life. Experience and education are powerless in the face of raw emotion.

A vision of loveliness, sitting awake in the dark. Both eyes open, out of fear as well as a strange anticipation of something new. A subtle appreciation of life overshadowed by an inexplicable desire for something else. Death is becoming, but only from an acceptance of things for what they are.

Silent steps from behind exposed shoulders. A smile sinister, yet longing. It will take time to come to terms with what's to happen, but the pain of involuntary solitude is too much. Shadow leans into neck, fangs bared. The unconventional embrace of punctured skin, the letting and drinking of blood, ensures companionship until the end of time.

Even if she hates him for it.

27 comments:

  1. Interesting post, Jeff. Didn't get the whole vampire angle until the very end. Hmmm...

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  2. Joseph Mello at 4:16pm July 9
    Interesting. Sad, too, the more I think on it.

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  3. Derek P. Levandowski at 6:34pm July 9
    i just rented 30 days of night.

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  4. Carrie Foster at 5:33pm July 9
    Nice vampire touch.

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  5. Kristin Ziska at 6:43pm July 9
    How can you hate downs syndrom vampires??

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  6. If you do, I'll just ask another obscure 80s show question.

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  7. Carrie Foster at 6:58pm July 9
    @JeffScape: Geez, what haven't you seen? I added The Descent to my Netflix list. I better not have nightmares.

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  8. Uh, no. It's because you're reading it on Facebook, and that's just a feed sample.

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  9. Jessica Lynn Payton at 1:21am July 10
    Why does it cut off? Probably just my crappy computer.

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  10. Aisha Kramer at 1:31am July 10
    we all die alone we are all born all if you believe anthing else your fooling yourself the trick is to find somebody to share with along the way.

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  11. Beautiful.

    Posted by LISA on July 10, 2009 - Friday - 8:40 AM

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  12. Carrie Foster at 4:44pm July 10
    Hahaha...

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  13. Carrie Foster at 4:57pm July 10
    No, they are not funny. With the exception of Once Bitten.

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  14. And Twilight. And Moonlight. And any other unimaginative "_____-light" B-rated crap there is hiding out there.

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  15. Aisha Kramer at 8:36pm July 10
    wait now I'm confused is this about a vampire? I thought it was human nature.

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  16. Carrie Foster at 6:20pm July 10
    Maybe YOU should write a vampire story...

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  17. The fangs and the blood drinking not give it away?

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  18. And maybe I will, Ms. Foster. :P

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  19. I've got a kick-ass title for it, too. ;)

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  20. Carrie Foster at 10:28pm July 10
    I'll be waiting for it!

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  21. Carrie Foster at 10:42pm July 10
    Could it be...The Forever Night?

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